Fear. Doubt. Uncertain
Fear. I remember every detail as if it happened yesterday. My mother immediately packs our things and decided to seek shelter with my grandparents. My mom is packing as fast as she can, so she can save as many things — that they established — as she can. I, on the other hand, was just watching with my heart beating fast. I never really saw the fire, but I felt my mother’s rush and anxiety. With God’s grace, we never needed to go to my grandparents — fire was under control and it did not even come near us. But for years it has tormented me, not until my high-school days did I let go of the my fear with fire. With God’s grace, I’ve overcome fear. God is good!!
Doubt. It was the board exam of the history — our review were extended indefinitely. The 6-month review turned into 8-month review. My confidence fell, doubt in my heart started to creep it. I thought after the exam, my outlook would be different — less I know after the exam is when my self-doubt will peak. During the exam — there were just a few items I am confident I know. Most of the questions — I have never encountered them in my whole engineering life. That is the only time in my life I’ve solved a problem without even knowing what formula to used. After the exam, I called my mother and told her — I might fail — no I was sure I will fail. While waiting for the results doubt and faith were waging war in my heart. I was doubting myself, I am not sure if I will pass — but my father comforted me, he told me to pray without ceasing and believe. December 18, 2013 — a few days after the exam I got a call, I cried when I heard the news — I passed the exam. God is faithful.
Uncertainty. I became unsure of how the future would look like. Having kids, being in a house, a happy life with him. But one circumstance — my mistake — took it all from me. I was trying to feel and see the future just as before, but all I see was darkness — my eyes were clouded of uncertainty. Until I audaciously declared my faith — we will be restored with God. God is great.
Faith — the countermeasure to fear, doubt, and uncertainty. I realized that instead of going to our basic, human and worldly feeling, we must respond first by Faith — not our last resort.
“And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be” — Matthew 17:20
“For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.” — Mark 11: 23
Two different verses, but both tells us to live by faith. When things don’t go our way, have faith that the Lord has placed you there for something great, that we may not understand now but hold to his promise of hope and bright future. Have faith in Him, that He will direct your path.
When I declared relationship restoration (just a while ago) — I was relieved of a heavy burden, it felt like a heavy load was taken out of my shoulder. I smiled and almost cried — the feeling is unexplainable. I feels like it has already been completed. That everything is restored. Truly, faith can move mountains.
Today, I challenge you to declare your faith as I did! Write them down and believe you have received them. Let God’s will be done in our lives.
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