I recently started reading Mandy Hale’s Beautiful Uncertainty and every word of it feels like “This is similar to my story” . Especially that part about ‘seven years’. Why? If you can remember me telling you guys on one of my previous post that I have been approximately in a relationship for 7 years (this includes the courting phase — hoho!) and my recent relationship ended last September 7, 2016 — officially — coincidence? I think not. 🙂
What’s with seven you may ask? It’s just a mere number. Well, not for me anymore! I searched for the biblical meaning of it and asked a friend of mine as well, just to understand why seven is very significant and how is it that it is not a coincidence in my love life. A friend of mine told me that number seven is a number of God and that it denotes creation, while on the internet, one site said that,
Seven is the number of completeness and perfection (both physical and spiritual)
What does it have to do with me? Well I have partial answers to it, and maybe later on when I meditate and listen to God, I maybe able to know the whole meaning of the number seven in my love life. Shall we go look at the partial answer? (I shall update this once I have the complete answer, hihi! For now [09/26/2016] this is what I have. Bear with me, it might be a bit long):
My whole love life spanned for 7 years. If you can remember, I was telling you that my recent relationship was seemingly perfect, as I thought he was the one. But for some reason I cannot understand, it ended. I never really understood why or how, until such time I read Man are from Mars, Women are from Venus book and every word of it convicted me. I was like, “Yeah I did this, that’s way the relationship ended cause I am 100% pain in the ass. Instead of letting him cave in, I was relentlessly followed him and thus him wanted to end it all and me left behind”.
For days I have been hard on myself, thinking it was my fault the relationship ended, but with this I realized it was not me — it was God. Nope, I am not blaming God for my failed relationships, I have all the blame for it. Neither am I mad at Him for not stopping me enter to a relationship which is bound to fail. You now what? I am actually thankful. First, is because He let me experience the joy of love. Second, He has shown me the power of freewill — it was actually because of freewill that I have had relationships and Lastly, He made me stronger and He sustained me from all the pain and hurt I felt. But when God saw that I am not where I am supposed to be — He gave me a lesson. A lesson that spanned for 7 years.
Just as He said on the last day when He created earth, He told me, “my princess, it is finished”. What was finished? Well I think that is, me going on my way. He is now telling me to stop and listen to Him. Let Him be God and let Him do what needs to be done. He has shown me that my freewill is hurting me and will hurt me more if I did not stop. I strongly believe in my heart that my loving Father has delivered me from pain and disappointments in love life. I don’t need the seven years but because I was stubborn and He gave me the seven years, to be “created” again — be the person that I really am in God’s eyes.
Thank God He saved me, that all I need was just seven years!! Thank God this is the only aftermath of my freewill, not anything serious. Thank God for delivering me from wrong relationships to be able to seek the right one — a relationship with Him, that will surely not end. Truly, God’s timing is perfect.
Another partial answer that I have why those “relationships” lasted for significantly seven years. Let us look below:
Those “relationships” were just for seven years, because God told me that the “perfect” one is coming up. And yes, it did already — it was with Him. The relationship was so intimate that He is even letting me watch in the front seats, with VIP tratement, as the words in the bible come to life, specifically this verse:
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. — Matthew 6:33”
And for some explainable reason, I know in my heart, that soon enough the man whom is dedicated for me by God will come. I don’t know when, I don’t know where, I don’t know who — but he really feels close. I do not want to get sidetracked by someone who is not yet here, so while I am waiting, my time will be focused on God and strengthening our relationship more — of course it should be sustained or even stronger when I finally met him.
I have been saved from the wrong relationships — delivered from the pain and disappointments, because I seek, and will continue to seek, Him. God has been faithful and good to me. My heart is filled with pure hope, joy and peace.
When I seek Him, everything (and when I say everything it really means everything) falls perfectly into it’s place.
I have yet to discover why seven has been significant to my love life. But even if I could not know all the reasons — I am ok with it, as long as my Father is with me. He gave me 2 partials answers yet for me those two are enough. Words cannot express how grateful I am for Him and His works. I cannot even explain the feeling of having been given these partials answers — it is overwhelming, the wisdom He shared me is mind-blowing! It left me speechless, how great God works — if we let Him work in our lives.
If you’re asking, do I also need seven years? No! You don’t need the seven years, all you need is to ask God to move your life the way He wanted it to be. Total surrender.